When come to the junction

How to decide?
Sometime is really hard to measure!?!

I wish i can be more straightforward!

don't want think too much..

don't want care so much..

but when it come to a serious decision and face the reality

i lost my way..

since when i started feel not confidence to myself?

quite a long time i guess...

but what to do?

i asked and asked...no one can give me a real answer

is all depend on myself to figure out the answer!

Of course, i have to bear every consequences of that particular decision..

pros and cons

think over again and again..

i don't want face to REGRET again!

once decision make, i have to take all responsibility to my own decision!

this is me, thats why sometime quite suffering

and i really hate to make such decision!

many peoples told me,

"it's just an internship,

why you want think this much?

so go ahead!"

but, it related to my future..my career..

how can i just simply make a 'cincai' decision without measure and compare?

or am i just think too much?

this is the initial period i step out to the working society

and a period that i can really figure it out what i want what i need!

i don't wish i make a wrong decision,

waste my time and mess up everything at the end!

it's really mean to me...

Dear god, please direct me step into the right way!

take me out from this annoyance...

Exhausted Work

Where i had been this whole week? seem like disappear in msn and also blogspot. well well well~~this is becos of my job make me no time to stay in front my laptop. Just 1 week only make me feel weary as a teacher of primary school. The life of teacher is bored, wake up early early in the morning, evening only bac from work everyday. Due to my tiredness, i would like to take a nap. when awake is night time dy. Then just left few hours for my own...but usually a part of those few hours were for the work. Argh!!! This will suffice for me to become panda and my face become worst and worst! T.T

i truly give up with this, luckily just for 13 days...if i become a permanent teacher, i guess i will mad! i dont think that i'm suit to become a teacher as i found that i'm not qualified. Scare that i will lead the young astray! Even i just work for 13 days, i'm trying to find a proper way to let the students understood wat i was teached. The students are pity as a result of their subject teachers were keep changing. Everytime they need to adapt the new teacher's style with no choice..i wonder how much they actually can learn in this kind of condition?

This is a new experience for me, some time i feel ''ceh! teacher is just like that only!" in fact, it let me know that it is not a easy work to be a teacher if u do it with true heart. Dont think that teacher only go to class for teaching or marking correction on students' homework, they need to prepare and handle any situation of students especially problem student. it is fairly complicated.

Now, another 1 week to go...after that i need to leave. Hope that i hv enough time to complete my works. Dont wish to keep my works to next teacher. Ok, it is all for today...but not yet feel sleepy. erm..finish 1 episode of Hana Yori Dango first. Oyasumi~mina.

NEW Job

Got a call this noon, i jz get a job for this last 3 weeks of my holidays...it start from this Thursday. the details still not clear, need to wait till i go there. a bit scare and nervous...do not know why? perhaps i can make it...

Going to end my Otaku life, need to wake up early in the morning everday...argh~~it is hard for me! i sure will unaccustomed to all of this. is time for me to adjust my time, if not after go bac to uni sure will meet some trouble.

Hurh...need to prepare for my job and stuff to use! still have 1 day to go...
wish me with luck! Nitez...everybody~~