The Last and The Only

Last day of year 2010

but i still have no mood to welcome 2011

i feel that time flies after Christmas

i do have time, but i waste all of it!

someone reminded me on yesterday and only i found that it is going to end soon...very very soon!

what i did for this year? Seriously, i am lazy to recall back!

it is useless to blog if i recall back now, am i right?

everything happened during my past always store in my memory

i will recall it back if one day the mood is on!

what i did is no longer important for me now,

moving forward with whole-heart is something that i keep learning right now!

i am not going to write down any resolution for year 2011

feel that useless for me to list down due to plan always cannot catch up with changes!

but i can tell the aim in my life which is retaining the faith to live in the moment!

i started missing 2010

Life is short, i still have how many days to spend like this?

幻影

如果有一个管道

不管是什么

只要能连接你的世界

一切就变得不一样了

这是奢侈的

我都知道

我找不到落脚的地方

所以我的世界

依旧空白

To Her

Today is Her day, my lovely senior

She is working at Beijing now

Feel like want dedicate something to her

So i decide to write a post about her!

I knew her since i joined the project Spring Festival 2009

She is passion and treat everyone very well

Due to this reason,

she has hundred of friends in university

Uncountable~~seriously~~

everyone know her!

I really wonder how she did it?

Since when we getting closer and closer?

I have no idea!

I still remember that,

We shared a lot secret during semester 2 and 3.

and did a lot of crazy things in university!

Not much details i can share here because of some private reasons

What i can mention is,

she bring an unforgettable memory to my university life for sure.

=)

She was semester 4 and I was semester 2 on the exhibition day.

I guess this is our first duo-photo!

Still this noob look...wakaka...

but i miss that time~~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Ca Ryn!

Take good care ya~~

Piss me off!!!

Argh...my mind is too itchy!

Make a decision to cut my fringe short

It is so hard to manage la...

Start missing my previous hair...T-T

Took at KFC last 2 days...

I want it back, please grow faster!

Daze!!!

In this moment

i should study for my paper

but what in my mind

is out of these words

trance for a long

'what i chase for the rest of life?'

it is not a good time to think about it now

however, it's spinning in my mind for couple days

raining outside

chilly inside

tonight will be another tough night

困在

一个有始无终的爱情

是会让人困在自己营造的世界里

明知道那是一个到不了的世界

却不切实际的把自己捆绑在里头

连接着一个没有尽头的绳索

一步一步的探索

似乎有了一点点的寄托

却在更深入的摸索以后

却发现越来越陌生

视线变得不再清晰

感觉也变被吞噬了

明明你就在眼前

为什么 心 却此的遥远

我清楚地知道

全都是因为 那是我的世界

不是你的那一个

这是一种束缚

让人窒息的

就算再怎么努力挣扎

似乎也逃脱不了

詞:吳青峰 曲:Maximilian Hecker

無聲的嘆息 像雷躲進光裡

最深的恨 侵蝕愛

倒流的淚滴 像雨滲入海底

最深的愛 諷刺恨

誰比誰容易

你困在自己的世界裡 我困在我的心裡

全都無法交集

你困在有我的回憶裡 我困在你的懷疑

誰也不能 呼吸

片段的足跡 謀殺整片森林

最淺的死 衡量愛

殘喘的縫隙 綻放邪惡秘密

最淺的生 釋放恨

誰比誰壓抑

你困在自己的世界裡 我困在我的心裡

全都無法交集

你困在有我的回憶裡 我困在你的懷疑

誰也不能呼吸

生要比死更需要勇氣

看似 恨總比愛輕易

是這樣嗎

我困在自己的世界裡 你困在你的心裡

全都沒有交集

我困在有你的回憶裡 你困在我的愛裡

誰也無處可去

I Miss You

People like to say this to me

"If you are here now, how good it can be!"

Think seriously

If i were there, will you miss me?

The answer maybe not, and maybe yes!

Human is odd

when he/she does has something or someone beside,

he/she will never cherish.

On the contrary

when the something or someone is gone,

he/she started blow off, guilty either.

How the life you wish to have?

People you love always be with you

or want to be a loner

Life can be a choice

Life can be choice less as well

Some people attempt to stay alive

but some people tend to seek death

for me,

i just want to live in the moment

no matter how the life is...

So, i want to tell loudly that i miss you now!

as long as i won't feel regret

p/s: miss tan jing shuang, so hard only i find 1 photo of our duo-photo. Next time pls take more!

Are you READY to do so?

Grateful

Got a call from aunt to ask for help. It was urgent so i forced to help her. Okie lo...

At the end, i was spending my half day to do this.

Peeling (can i use peel??) all the stickers, the most stupid stickers which so stubborn!

These just a bit of the thousand sheets! So many “感恩”“感恩”“感恩”“感恩”“感恩” x n~

Peeled until wanna get mad!!!! But it is hard to when looking on this!!!

“感恩”“感恩”“感恩”“感恩”“感恩” keep showing in my mind! >.<

Luckily, someone come and rescued! We no need to peel! i was so happy when heard this good news! Really feel grateful~~How good if he come early!!

my study time was sacrificed...hope that someone feel “感恩” to me and pray for my exam!

God bless me!!!

真的很可悲

这一夜

就为自己决堤一次

其他的

什么都不需要了

我不喜欢

生病

只会显得更寂寞

尤其是一个人的时候

Sushi King + Steamboat

I was busying with assignments for last 2 weeks

now i finished all the assignments and just left japanese presentation & short drama only!

after that study week is coming...then exam turn...siez!

well...dun think abt that 1st...prefer to share something i did at last week!

Last week was sushi week,

i grabbed the chance to enjoy the promotion for sure! yipee***

that day i tired like prawn becos the night before the day i slept on 6am!

spent a long time waiting them at Starbuck after i reach Sunway Carnival

almost fall slept at there..drink coffee also useless for me..@.@

Finally they reached and we lined up and waiting again..

due to dinner time..so many customers were waiting there..

but it is worth to wait for cheaper sushi!!!!

Thank you fishes' treat!!!!

They provide a good service to us! Give them applause!

The waitress so kind to us and always smile to their customers when we were lining up. The man at top right, he prepared octopus sushi that i requested!XD The guy at bottom left do a lot of my most favorite unagi sushi, i ate a lot and the unagi bigger than other place. The guy at bottom right introduced a lot of nice sushi for us to try. Good Job Man!!!! This time i found that scallop sushi and mashpotato with prawn sushi so tasty..a must try sushi!

Most of my TARC frens backed from UK d..

so i arranged my time to meet them.

Damn miss the kiam pak muaci and big head prawn piggie!

Sure wont miss the chance to meet them la...

Again, i promise them to have sushi at early time...

so i went to sushi with them on the another day..
quite rush for whole day...not much chatting we did

Here they are...hohoho~~~

piggie bf, amo also with us..but dont hv his photo here!

That day (14th oct), i also got my new toy-SE Hazel

so these all are my first batch of photos snapped by Hazel.

I wonder why the quality become bad after i upload here?

Whatever la...as long as i hv better cellphone to use.

Friday night,

i had a steamboat gathering with them again

that time only we chatted and shared a lot..

especially their experiences at UK and Europe

i swear i will go there in future!

besides, muaci passed me the old photos and videos that i asked for long time

Those photos and videos really laugh me die!

i will upload it when the chance comes...XD

This is the Swarovski pencil that muaci bought for me

the most value part is that crystal, small but shining

he force me to use it but how to use it wor?

so i decide to display it at my room...=)

Thank you, my dear muaci~~

Recently i dun have a good sleep quality!

not enough time to sleep or insomnia...

even now i have time to sleep but i cant sleep well also...gosh!

and this make my dark circle become more and more obvious

See..my face look like 丧尸..>.<'''

i hate myself

i'm stupid!

once again

i lost it...

how come it would happened again?

why? can anyone tell me why?

i dint ask for more anymore

i just wanna keep it as a part of my memory

why cant you give me a chance?

i lost everything d

why u still wanna reave these from me?

i'm noob!!!

i hate myself!!!!

intimate talk

Having a cup of caramel latte and chatting with fish

it is a heart to heart conversation

a conversation that console and sharing between us

we fall deep in love

we grow up from the relationship as well

and we are the same kind of people

although we failed in relationship before

but she can manage it well

she can put it down and look forward

she understand what she want and needs

she is growing, no longer a blur blur fish

she tend to become a mature fish

but,

How about me?

I miss you guys...so much...

10 October 2010

i had a day with you since long time ago

long long time ago

long until i nearly forget

today is 10th October 2010

so what...it still mean nothing for me without you

i do remember u like to do something on special date.

even it is hard for us to do something special,

but at least something that we do not used to do!

Now, i am recalling back with nostalgia to 07th July 2007

The date with no big deal,

but did have some sweet and anger matters happened between us.

It was the story of us ever and ever

I miss the day badly...the day you still be with me.

Sorry my dear,

i should appreciate more..

痛

我以为我已经慢慢释怀了

我以为我已经习惯了寂寞

我以为我不会轻易的流泪

我以为我依旧坚强的活着

可是正当我天真地以为时

那一场短暂的梦

确确实实的把自己敲醒

是我一直都在骗自己

心里的那种痛 那种不舍

你的笑容 你的拥抱 甚至你的温度

这一切的一切都很真实

但却永远都不会是事实

为什么总是那么残忍？

为什么总是让我沉溺在对你的思念？

为什么就在今天？

为什么是场梦？

该怎么办才好？

我快要承受不了那种痛了

我很想你

这样的夜里 微微的冷意

我的兴奋 我的反常

只不过是掩饰着自己的情绪

澄清

从星期六回来大学到现在

我已经被明讯折磨了很多天

电话总是拨不出

再不然就是拨不进

就连信息都是几个小时后才收到

真的是很打击！

很多朋友都臭骂我

怎么还不换快点电话

要找我都难

几乎全部人都怪上小白

我可怜的小白虽然有点毛病

但不至于接不了电话

不要再诬赖他了

这确确实实是明讯的问题

只要我在campus area

线路根本没有问题

但是回到宿舍问题就大了

宿舍区的线路根本就是烂透了

总是收到一堆未接来电的信息

这情况已经持续几天了

现在更过分

连一条线都没有

我早在两天前就向明讯投诉了

也看到他们的回应

该做的都做了

我还能怎么办？

别再怪罪小白了

汝娘之

说真的

越来越反感

越来越不可理喻

讨厌那种

有口说人没口说自己的人

我干嘛要搞到自己将压力？

聊

我喜欢聊天，而不是我爱聊天

应该说我喜欢听朋友聊天

因为我不善于文字表达

不属于能言善道哪一类

我应该归类为怪胎。

夜晚 最适合和几位朋友相聚聊天

没有白天的喧哗

没有引擎的噗噗声

没有三姑六婆的说三道四

寂静的夜里

只有彼此的嘻嘻哈哈

昨晚 我逮到了这机会

和老朋友纯粹的相聚聊天

我喜欢这种单纯的纯粹

感觉远远胜过视窗聊天

没有夹杂着任何的生活压力

纯粹只为了见见朋友

聊聊趣味十足的往事

踏上中学，已经是十年前的事了

如果眨一眨眼就过一年

那我已经眨了十眼

几快一下！

如果你恨不得时间快点过

那就请你眨多几眼吧！

正当我们滔滔不绝的聊起当年

才赫然发现我们已经认识了十年

认识多少年才算得上是老朋友？

十年，算吧？

所以我称他们为老朋友

这十年里的前五年，

我把它列入花样年华的时段

也是我们建立情感的当年

那条隐形的线依然紧紧的牵引着彼此

虽然现在我们都在不同的角落

但是 曾经共同拥有的回忆

不是轻易的能被取代

别人或许没有

至少对我来说是这样

喜悦的感觉拼命地涌上心头

分享似乎停不了

被勾出来的回忆

开始满满的占据了心

我 又再次陷入‘期待着过去’的情绪里

水

我要喝水

水... 水... 水...

我必须要喝水

强迫自己喝多点水

你问我，缺什么？

我缺的就是...

水。

七夕 雨天

又是雨 迎接新的一天

面子书里总是有人提醒着

是的 又是雨天的七夕

印象中

我没怎么特别的去过这日子

相信未来也一样

重复听着王力宏的新歌《你不知道的事》

感触也越来越多

想着的不是电影的情节

也不是歌词的意境

而是前天的那场梦

我被你彻底的遗忘了

就连我要接触你的机会

也一一地被旁人所剥夺

那种感觉远远超越离开的痛

哪怕是一场梦

我不希望我在你的记忆中

是个 零

失去的寂寞

每每到了这个时候

心，总是寂寞的

我真的以为

我可以很潇洒

把过去的都处理得很好

时间嘀嗒嘀嗒的过了

我却还没有把心 好好的整理一番

或许 是我自己想让他保留

所以拼了命去翻开，拼了命的去记得

深怕失去我存有的记忆

日子久了

却发现越来越模糊了

过去的温度，过去的味道

我都快要忘了

这种遗忘让我变得无比的寂寞

无时无刻的想着

却再也想不起的寂寞

又有谁能够体会？

眼泪 模糊了视线

也只不过是抒发情绪

那条线 依然牵引着

只是我再也看不见 也摸不着

Little update + Protocol Day

What a tough week for me...

Everything comes together, busy like hell for this week.

luckily i settled those assignments and presentation. Hurray~~

But another bad news for me, i have to rush for another 3 tasks which due on 15th Aug. This really drive me crazy!!! Never mind...i just take a rest now and have to struggle for its afterward! I need to complete as much as i can, because i plan to go KL on next week. Hope that nothing pop out abruptly and screw up my plan!

Just realized that i have few edited photos haven't share at here. i planed to write a post for it..but now kinda lazy and busy, so just post it here...

These all are captured during we attended a protocol learning session at EDC Hotel on 24th July. Actually, the session quite useless and bored...because the instructor just talked about basic only. I just learned how to eat western food correctly but what she taught was very common skill only.

Same table with them, don't know should happy or cry...cause they keep made fun during the meal! Haha...but i do love them...because where they are, where the laugh!

These was the dishes on the night!

The rigidity chicken chop so hard to cut, my finger felt pain after i finished my meal. >.<>

Well...fried rice was belong to sok ping, because she is vegetarian. But, was the guys to finish it.

Where we went, where we snapped~

Seem like the day was the shooting day. We shoot non stops!

So sad that still miss someone else to complete the collection of twosome photo with course mates.

Yeah...we are B. Comm!!!

We are not the best but we fight to be the best!

So sad that jiayie was not around, if not we were full attended!

We are minoring in different field, namely tech comm, organ comm, international affair, tourism and small correction here..is development comm in stead of journalism.

Our relationships are getting closer and closer. May be we know that we are going to leave this greeny university after 10 months, so we enjoyed what we did at where we went!

Black Mango

Just changed my wallet to purse...cos i really can't stand with the GMX! it can't even close when i have a lot of coins inside. i dint buy myself a wallet or purse for a long time. So i was searching for a suitable purse lately. Finally, i grabbed this at Mango just now! this is what i can afford to give my moneys and cards a suitable casing.

Leather in black with golden zip! Quite mature actually...so what? i'm no longer a teenager!

My First

Last Friday, i went abroad to Hatyai and Songkha with course-mates for one day trip. This was my first time to have a trip with course-mates, i enjoyed a lot on that day and had fun with my crazy course-mates as well. Besides, i was very unsatisfied with the irresponsible organizer. The route of journey was worst, i wonder he did planned or no. Have you ever met a organizer waked up late on the depart day? He messed up the trip, i have no idea with his experiences of trip's organizer. Next time, i wont have another try to join 'M's trip..any of them.

This is my border pass. In coming half year, i still hv chance to go to Thai. Who want date me, just inform me earlier...lol

i have lost my patient after i applied my border pass. i spent nearly 8 hours to complete this task. Seem like so complicated process, but the fact is it can be easily complete within 15 minutes. Again, i would like to say million 'THANKs" to my organizer for helped me to spend my life time!

took photos before depart.

Girls, but not all went together.

keep capturing when waiting

We waited for so long, all of us had lost our passion at last. We got mad with the organizer, keep complaint but we know it was useful. Because he cant get our point! truly speechless with him. after that, we all just ignored him..

Queue up for pass through the territory at Bukit Kayu Hitam, Malaysia. i got scold after i took this photo by the landing-waiter. i did not notice the sign with no camera! :p

This is the counter i pass through at Thai, he is so kind and smile with me even though he saw me took his photo. lol

The sign of no camera seem no function at all. hohoho~~

me with my border pass at custom of Thai.

the landing-waiter told me that this old style telephone booth is so popular. Most travelers like to take photo at here. as a traveler, i also feel excited to see those peculiar things. No matter is old style or even advance's objects. So, just snap snap and snap.

on the day, the most popular item was my sun glass.

everyone looks nice when wear it.

Our first stop at Nora Plaza, the place that not suit young blood to go. Many leather products and souvenirs are available at there. we can find bird-nest as well, i dint try it although just 200 baht per bowl. who know they will sell fake bird-nest or not?

this is the pen holder that grabbed our attention. So funny~~3 of my male course-mates bought it as a gift to themselves. i joked with them, if they need...just take off the cover to inform their gal that he need!!! lol...

this is the variation jambu...quite nice to eat. 20 bath per pack.

i had tried the small pineapple also, sweet and juicy...

The next stop was merchant's shop which located near to Nora Plaza. Many snacks and true-born food can be found at there. i bought my favorite snack for sure! MAMA brand's duck and creamy tomyam flavor instant noodles as well.

i dunno wat it call. can i call it caterpillar? i ate it, i though is crispy but hollow inside. it quite similar taste with one of the Malay's snack.

After that, we sat on the car for long long time and we reached Songkhla. it was time to lunch. We were so happy because we were craving for so long to taste the local famous TomYam. Unfortunately, the tour guide brought us to a street that nothing there but few mamak stalls!!!! Can u believe that we went to Thailand to eat mamak??? What expression you expect to get from me? This time, we got mad seriously! and last, we chose to got a bite to eat at seven eleven. Not only us, but the other gang of Chinese did so too.

My shrimp burger and yogurt drink. Just cost me 30 baht. i was curious with the shrimp burger, cos i never see this in M'sia. So i had tried it and it was yummy! but the yogurt drink, just so so only...

Luckily i went to the 7-11, it was small but everything u can get there. The most important is the price is far cheaper than M'sia. Of course M'sia has a lot of 7-11, but how many of them truly completed and ready to provide the conveniency of consumers?

After finished our lunch and shopped at 7-11, we went to Samila Beach. You know what, i guess u will go back again once u visited there. The view really nice! It is a long long long long beach...i miss the beach so much!

when we can go again?

four of them like to 'zo siao'!!! where have them, where have our laugh~ =)

My sweet roommate!

that day was rainy day, no sunlight but still nice the view! That's why i love this place so much!

i can leave everything behind when i come to beach!

Love BEACH and SEA!!!

Time to act like what we suppose to do at beach!

Ling Eue (pant with orange color) really funny! He always be the sockdolager.

3, 2, 1, Jump~

but we just success for once!

Hey frenz, we have to practice more la...

non-stop shooting...

The mermaid will bless the human who capture photo with her to find their true love.

i din't even have a chance to take photo with the mermaid at all due to busy shooting for others. lol

Before leave, had a last shoot as our memory...

after many years, when we look back these photos..at least we know that we did crazy for our life, enjoyed life neither!

They are the couple of the day~Stay sweet!

Beside the beach, a peddler with shoulder pole was selling some snacks. He used charcoal fire to bake the eggs all along so that the eggs kept warm. It was novelty for us.

This is the dragon's head near the beach, i was caught in rain to capture this photo.

actually has the story abt it...but i din't hear to tour guide at all. XD

We leave Songkhla afterward and headed to Lee Garden at Hatyai. Another 1 hour spent in bus...T.T...in this journey, the time in bus more then the time to visit! Damn it!!! We jz had 1 hour to stay at the shopping centre...wat can i shop during this short period?

This was another view of hatyai, it more to a busy city! Again, we had to wait for our bus due to the traffic jam. Of course, that was the time for us to capture as much as we can...all my course-mates like camwhore so much!

Owing to rush like hell, i just bought the McD's Samurai Pork Burger as my dinner. Yea...pork burger not available at M'sia so i sure grabbed this chance to eat at Thai. For me, it was too much of mayonnaise and sauce, easy to feel greasy. Maybe i not really craving for pork, so it just taste normal for me. But i recommend it to you all if you never try pork burger.

Once more, BURGER!!! How pity i was!!! Admittedly, this was a burger trip. i was so despair with it!!!

The last stop was floating market. When we reached there, it was around 8 something. Everything was late, we all though that there sure will be a busy street. In fact, nothing there while we arrived! Most of the stalls were closed...just left few of them! HELL~~~i really felt that the organizer really has a BIG PROBLEM with his mind!!! Strongly feel that we had diddled by him!

Those boats were empty, we cant even make a deal even we have a lot of money left!!!

There had a stall was selling sushi, the sushi were small and so cute! At the end, just bought few pieces of sushi. So funny that we went to Thailand ate fast food and Japanese food instead of eat any very locally food. Where those TomYam Kung, thai style fried chicken?

Finally, we left Hatyai around 9 something. In the way back, we kept complaining, joking, chit-chating, talking nonsense, laughing and even planning for next trip. Although we were disappointed with some of it, but we still very enjoyed it! It brought a lot of memory for me as well.

These all wat i bought

2 pork flavor instant noodle-14 baht

my lovely vitamilk-31 baht

cute sushi- 30 baht

pretz ham cheese- 12 baht

(i regretted that i dint buy more, so hard to find at M'sia)

3 tins of snack-11 baht

vintage style and cool's Heineken earing.

Love them so much!

5 pairs of earing just for 100 baht. Cheap like hell~

but i just bought 2, cos no other design that i like.

hs, i offer you to choose one pair of it since you ask for it d.

First trip really mean to me, i can't wait for next trip!

Have to end this post d, i had spend too much of time to this. Is time to struggle for my assignment!